no more school for the year!

Whew it feels hella good to be done. NO more stressing bout finals! It's like a breath of fresh air. Now I'll be at home playing this new laptop. It was about time for change; had that vaio for almost two years now. I needed something smaller.. But yeah for my last final, ochem, I thought the final was seriously at 6. Around 530, cousin comes home to see me studying... asks why im still studying ochem, I said that I had a test 6. She tells me the test was at 4... FML! I never ran so hard in my life. Fukcin adrenaline rush right there. Professor almost didn't let me take the test... I wasn't planning on taken ochem again, that would have seriously sucked.. well doesn't matter, I aced it lol I did better than I did in stats but i dunno bout theatre arts.. watever, its all over.. for now.

Man, christmas is coming up and I haven't done any sort of christmas shopping watsoever... need to get on that. I never know what ppl want. hmm secret santa again this year with the osu kids. Alotta ppl in this year i barely even know.. which i dont really like but watever. It's not gonna be as close... sigh. Ppl made alotta new friends this year, but I stay close to the ones I have. Time to hang out with friends before we all go back to school.. lame. It can only last for so long. Hopefully no snow like last year.. All I did was watch korean movies and dramas.. nohomo. Very depressing winter break last year. I might actually get to the the mountain this year. sweet.

recap

Damn, its been a while since i've last blogged. alot has happened since then. halloween was definitely the best partying experience i've had in college so far. a few old friends came down again. it was so chill hangin out with them. and another friend i didnt get to see til the end of the night haha. i dressed up as a fork... and tommy was a spoon. yeah, pretty lame. next year, im definitely gonna be something cooler. i saw alotta of old faces at BJ's party. i still dont know who BJ is though haha. after i left the party, some black came up to me thinking i stole his backpack. pretty random.. he threw a couple punches at me, hit me once in the head, but it didnt hurt. i understand what alcohol can do to ppl so i didnt fight back.. its watever. overall, it was a great night.

i had a good talk with one of my good friends this past week. i care a lot bout my friends. i never thought as myself as the one to be questionable of the peoples feelings towards me. its pretty scary cuz i've never really thought bout these things before. she made me start wonderig bout how my friends truly feel bout me sometimes. it may sound kinda selfish but i dont like the thought of any relationship im in, to be like a "one-way" love. its like being used or lied to. i'd like to think that all my friends genuinely do care bout me. its just sometimes people do say or do something that makes me question their friendship. i can't help how i feel towards people. i cant expect all of them to feel the same way. i do my best to a good friend towards. i know i shouldn't ask for anything in return. in the end, all that matter is that i am still friends with them.

my parents been having issues with my sister. shes growing up pretty fast. soon she'll be going off to college. over the years, we grown further and further apart. she barely tells me anything anymore. damn, as hard as it for me to admit, she reminds me of me.. i think thats a bad thing haha it's so hard to talk to her. sometimes i wished i knew what was going inside her head uhhhh i dunno. my mom is so protective of her. i just hope she can make the right decisions for herself.

this past weekend was very relaxing being at home. no studying or homework watsoever. i went to go visit my friend's father. it was raining so hard! i thought i had an umbrella in my car... i haven't been that drenched in cold rain in a while. its hard to explain how much it meant to me for her to ask me to go with her. i can only imagine the difficulties she had to go through in her life.i praise her for being such a strong person. i've always had a father figure in my life and i take that for granted sometime. i've never really lost anyone significant in my life as well. it scares me sometimes to even think bout it cuz death is a part of life we all have to deal with. i cant imagine losing anyone close to me right now in now my life and how i would respond to that. do i have the strength to deal with it? or will i let it break me? i just dunno..

on a lighter note, i got to enjoy some good food with my friends. five and a half rounds!! haha felt like shit afterwards. dont go to MOJOS CREPES!! i have pretty low standards when it comes to desserts, but mojos did it for me. uneven distribution of filling and soft crepes... no good. 12th is still the best!

first week back

Back at OSU, once again. Ever since I've been back, everyday has pretty much felt like a "friday". Been doing alot of catching up and hanging out with friends. There are ALOT of freshmans! haha It's weird I used to be one of them, but now I pretty much know my around this place. I haven't even thought about school yet. Still need to buy some books! At least my refund check is coming in soon. Gonna do some shopping with that money lol. Especially since I have my car down here, I can do some lil modifications to it I've been wanting to do for a while.

It definitely feels nice to see some faces again. I have to admit the first night I came down, sleeping in this whole complex by myself was kinda freaky. I dunno no one was here sunday night. I got like two hours of sleep... waking up in the morning is just as cold as I remembered it fuckkkk. All this sun is gonna end soon and its gonna suck. I already miss home. I miss food always being there for me, instead of me cooking it lol. I miss my dog. I miss my parents listening to cai luong... weird. I miss my all my friends that don't go here. Summer was sweet! The best yet! Too bad it had to end and college had to happen again.

Turning 20...

Wow it's been already been 20 years. I am definitely feeling indifferent about turning 20. This is the first time where I didn't really wanna celebrate my birthday. I feel so much older than everyone else in my year cuz I probably am. In the next few years, I will be expected to graduate, get a good job, get married and have kids. It's a whole 'nother decade... ahh man I dunno what to say. The future kinda freaks me out sometimes when I really think bout it... That's why I feel this summer has been so great. The best yet. It's going by really fast, just like with my first year of college. Sometimes I would I could just slow time down and live in a moment. I sound so weird right now. Truth is, growing up scares me. There is alot of pressure on me to succeed and its overwhelming at times. Before I know it, I'll be turning 21. It's going by fast.

my forehand.

This may not sound like a big deal to anyone, but I finally got my forehand from when I was playing on the OSU club tennis team. Starting to hit again in the beginning of summer, after the longs weeks of constant studying, my technique and footwork was novice-like. After a week, I was starting to get it all back, except of my forehand. I felt like I was pushing everything. I relied on my backhand, serve and volley. Now, I'm at the top of my game again.



If I had to describe my forehand to a pro, it'd be Richard Gasquet. Definitely not as good him. Just similarities in form.

Carl's Jr,

I may sound like a fatass, but I just tried the new Carl's Jr burger, THE BIG CARL, and it's pretty much my new favorite fast food burger haha. It's nice to indulge once in a while. Try it, ppl.

A good week so far.

I finally got my car back! About dang time. So I've decided to study to take the pharmacy technician exam. I always thought one had to take a class. I felt compelled to try this out. Sounds like an interesting job. If I like it, I might just apply to pharm school. I just started reading two days ago at Barnes and Noble. I really don't feel like spending money for that book, so I'm waiting for it come in at the Clackamas Library. The material is pretty easy. Just all memorization of drugs and crap. Not too bad. I'm planning to take the exam in like two weeks or so. It pays pretty well, too.

ULTIMATE FRISBEE was freaking awesome! I never really knew how much fun it was. Besides the game, hanging out with some friends before summer ends soon for alot of them is pretty nice. Andrew is leaving for NY on saturday. It was pretty hottt today though. Sweating like crazy. A lil potluck picnic. I made my special ketchup fried rice. Maybe I should just add pineapple and call it, "sweet 'n sour fried rice" hmmmm. It pretty bomb though. Le made some mochi with peanut butter filling. That was surprisingly good.

Looking forward to the picnic on thursday at blue lake. Hope alot of ppl can make it. It's pretty much a last BIG get-together sorta thing. I think I'm gonna make pad thai. Sounds good.

side note: gotta wash my car. hella dirrrty

freedom...

Things at home have been kinda crazy. My parents and I aren't getting along at all. Ever since I came back at home from OSU, my attitude has changed alot. At college, I can go wherever and come back whenever. At home, my mom is always checking up on me. It's driving me crazy. I understand how they feel, it's just I can worry about myself now. Every single time we argue, it's like they gang up on me. Their train of thought and ways is so traditional in the Vietnamese culture. I know for a fact it'll be different with my generation. I don't know if they'll ever understand this. I feel even worse for my sister because I know she will go through the same I've gone through with my parents. They are even worst on her. They keep her chained up in this place called home. My mom is like her shadow, never leaving her side. She's still young though. It's only a matter of time.

There's no trust in this family whatsoever. So what if I'm going to come home late? I can take care of myself. I just wanna hang out with my friends before school starts again. Is it so much to ask for from them? The time that is left is very short. Hyelin and Andrew are heading back to New York soon. Not to mention UP starts in like three weeks. I gotta get out of here. They took my car away... I don't need it anyways. It's only a means to get to places. I don't need a car for that, even though it would be easier.

On a lighter note, I went to a gay club last night. I was doing for friend. Plus, I wanted to experience it to say that "yeah, I've been to a gay club" haha. I wanted to take a step on the "other side". It wasn't all that excited anyways. Just loud techno music and a bunch of lesbos (nolies). This didn't really help with my headache. I felt like I was gonna have seizure. The freaking lights...

bad grammar, I know. just writing my thoughts

A slow week...

This week has been kinda bland... went to la center last night and broke even. Now I know that Hyelin KIM has been the center of the badluck. I'm not really supersticious or anything, but I have come to notice that when everytime she is around me when I'm playing, I lose. And when she leaves, the winnings come to me. It sounds ridiculous, but ask Julie. It's affecting her as well haha. It's whatever. Kinda tempted to go back today... nah.

The weather is getting cooler, so that's good for tennis. Been wanting to hangout with people. Summer is about to end for alot lof people already. Gotta make the best of it while it lasts. My parents have been on my case about getting a job. I really do do nothing at home during the day, except watch my animes haha. I could use some extra cash. No responses on the craigslist jobs. If I did get hired somewhere, I'd only work for like a month then back to OSU ahhhh.

Some of the youth group, or most of, are going on the youth fellowship camp in Olympia this week. I've gone like twice. Found out that it just wasn't for me. It'd hard to explain. People go to the these things and they get so fired up about God for like three days and then when they come back, nothing has changed. I'm not saying it's a waste of time or anything. People coming together and worshipping God is great! It's just too much for me.

favorite korean movies

Ever since has been over, I've been getting back into these korean movies and anime. Here's a list of my favorite movies ,so far, in somewhat of an order. It may seem girly, but it's not!!



Stairway of Heaven - A fucking classic! NOHOMO! This was my pretty much my first korean drama. I know it's not a movie, but it is what got me into watching all the korean movies. It's pretty sad... At first, it got me really angry then later on it gets sad. If you haven't seen this, then watch it!



My Sassy Girl- Another korean movie with a twist at the end. I like happy endings.



Gangster High- The fight scenes are pretty crazy. A great story about brotherhood. Not really a happy ending, but it's pretty crazy what happens.



He Was Cool- A romance of opposites attracting one another. Some comedy.



My Girl and I- A romance about this guy just dating a girl way out of his league but it doesn't last so long.



Sunflower- Somewhat of a gangster movie. More of a tragedy of a gangster trying to change his ways and live a new life, but they keep pulling him back in.



Il Mare "The Lakehouse"- Two people falling in love who live in different times, communicating thru letters. Pretty cool story. A twist at the end.



Baby and Me- This is funny and sad movie all in one. This guy finds a baby in grocery store then has to take care of the baby by himself with some help of his friends.



A Man Who was Superman- A very touching, inspirational movie. A must-watch.



Windstruck- I find this movie so touching. There were some funny moments but in the end, pretty sad.



A Moment to Remember- To make things short, this guy falls in with a girl that later develops Alzheimer's but he keeps on loving her. Pretty sad..



A Millionaire's First Love- A movie about true love and sacrificing of a young man to rip out the life of young useless playboy bachelor, into become a heartwarm romantic young lover.

If you have the time, watch a few of these. Watch 'em all if you can.

school is over

Just took my final. Hopefully I can hold my grade. But who cares, right? Finally, I can sleep in. Time to get back on the anime!

Holy shit! I almost forgot about Harry Potter. I've been hearing that it's pretty good. I don't read that shit though. F*** reading! jk jk I only read manga. If you know me, I'm pretty much an anime nerd. I can't believe Tommy talked me into going to the cosplay convention, Kumoricon. For those who don't know what cosplay is, it's when people dress up as an anime character... I know, I know it sounds a lil bit extreme, but I sounds fun. Shit... I'm dressing up Rock Lee. Don't laugh! I just wanna experience it for myself. I used to laught at this kind of shit. Now, I'm gonna be it. At least I'm not alone..

College

It's been truly a great experience. And it'd only been a year!!! I've made so many new friends and experienced so. High school was great, too.. but college is where I've learned so much about myself. Getting the chance to be away from my parents and living on my own. Freshman was a whole lot of fun. Besides the all nighters, midterms, finals, etc. I still really enjoyed the studying. To be honest, I never really studied in high school up until college.

I got meet alot of people once I moved into the apartment. The dorm life was not really the life I'd thought it'd be. So little space. I thank my cousin for giving me the idea and Christine for telling about the apartment.

Partying is just another part of college I think everyone should experience. It goes along with it. I went to a few frat parties early in fall term. I found out those big parties where everyone is getting crazy drunk wasn't the atmosphere I really enjoyed. Now, relaxing with friends and drinking was chill for me. The most fun I had was when my high school friends came down. Now that I look back on it, I became better with the friends I had in high school because of college. I really feel like college has in a way brought us all closer together, as corny as it may sounds.

The most surprising friend I made this year was not I didn't know before, but rather my cousin. We never really talked in high school. Different in so many ways. When we started living together, he turned into my best friend.

I really feel like I've matured to some level. It's kinda scary. oh well, three more years left.

A fresh start

So I've started a blog. I think of this as like a journal, something I've never really had. Something different than Facebook or a Twitter. Something I can reflect upon myself. Coool.