recap

Damn, its been a while since i've last blogged. alot has happened since then. halloween was definitely the best partying experience i've had in college so far. a few old friends came down again. it was so chill hangin out with them. and another friend i didnt get to see til the end of the night haha. i dressed up as a fork... and tommy was a spoon. yeah, pretty lame. next year, im definitely gonna be something cooler. i saw alotta of old faces at BJ's party. i still dont know who BJ is though haha. after i left the party, some black came up to me thinking i stole his backpack. pretty random.. he threw a couple punches at me, hit me once in the head, but it didnt hurt. i understand what alcohol can do to ppl so i didnt fight back.. its watever. overall, it was a great night.

i had a good talk with one of my good friends this past week. i care a lot bout my friends. i never thought as myself as the one to be questionable of the peoples feelings towards me. its pretty scary cuz i've never really thought bout these things before. she made me start wonderig bout how my friends truly feel bout me sometimes. it may sound kinda selfish but i dont like the thought of any relationship im in, to be like a "one-way" love. its like being used or lied to. i'd like to think that all my friends genuinely do care bout me. its just sometimes people do say or do something that makes me question their friendship. i can't help how i feel towards people. i cant expect all of them to feel the same way. i do my best to a good friend towards. i know i shouldn't ask for anything in return. in the end, all that matter is that i am still friends with them.

my parents been having issues with my sister. shes growing up pretty fast. soon she'll be going off to college. over the years, we grown further and further apart. she barely tells me anything anymore. damn, as hard as it for me to admit, she reminds me of me.. i think thats a bad thing haha it's so hard to talk to her. sometimes i wished i knew what was going inside her head uhhhh i dunno. my mom is so protective of her. i just hope she can make the right decisions for herself.

this past weekend was very relaxing being at home. no studying or homework watsoever. i went to go visit my friend's father. it was raining so hard! i thought i had an umbrella in my car... i haven't been that drenched in cold rain in a while. its hard to explain how much it meant to me for her to ask me to go with her. i can only imagine the difficulties she had to go through in her life.i praise her for being such a strong person. i've always had a father figure in my life and i take that for granted sometime. i've never really lost anyone significant in my life as well. it scares me sometimes to even think bout it cuz death is a part of life we all have to deal with. i cant imagine losing anyone close to me right now in now my life and how i would respond to that. do i have the strength to deal with it? or will i let it break me? i just dunno..

on a lighter note, i got to enjoy some good food with my friends. five and a half rounds!! haha felt like shit afterwards. dont go to MOJOS CREPES!! i have pretty low standards when it comes to desserts, but mojos did it for me. uneven distribution of filling and soft crepes... no good. 12th is still the best!