father.

I see my father in me. That's what scares me the most about my future...

weight loss...

down to 154. 14 more to lose. so much juicing..

getting closer.

I have truly come to see the true colors of people that are called my so called "friends". it's sucks in some way but not gonna let it weigh me down and just move on. in some way, its my fault for letting myself to be surrounded by them. need to focus on pharmacy. got the research lab job and vice-president position of pre-pharm society with some genuine help. things are moving fast.

changes...

so many changes this year has brought... though i've grown distant from a friend, i get surprisingly that much closer to another. it happens. can't keep on wondering what tmrw will bring. feeling optimistic and joyful.

friends no more

friends, even best friends, can come and go.

trust....

no one. all you have is yourself.

crazy start to 2011...

Wow this year has thrown me too many surprises. I dont know where to start.... I dont know what else is next to come. hmm lets start with my one my good friends, since beginning years of high school, coming out of the closet. I never thought I react the way I would in this situation. I was pretty much in denial for a while, thought he was joking. Afterwards, when I realized that he was really serious, it just threw me off. I mean wow! really? It made think of the all times we hung out and such. ughhhh took me awhile just to realize that he was still the same to me. Still, I never thought I'd react that. Sure, I've had a few friends come out, wasn't surprised, but this time was wayy different. We good now though.

I've always heard of arranged marriages and set-up is vietnamese families, back in vietnam and such. I laughed bout it and thought how different the culture is now here in the US. So one day, as me and my family were waiting in line for dim sum, we went over to dollar tree to get small stuff for going back to school. Never go here. While I was just waiting, my mom comes over to me giggling like a little girl, tells me to go greet this lady who used to go to her store and how she has a daughter that goes to osu and that her daughter was noticing me. My mom pulls my arm up to meet her... The whole time I was just thinking, WTF is this really going on?! Damn this isnt happening right now. I greet the mom and she kept on talking bout her daughter. When I shook her hand, I think I was looking down in shock... Most awkward thing ever! How can my mom do this to me, I was thinking. Just Wow! I laugh bout it now. She still even had the nerve to ask me if that girl could live with me in corvallis. She kept babbling about marriage and such. Man, couldn't believe she really tried that card on me...

2011... what else is in store this year.